I'm back from vacation. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, but i did still struggle. The little messages Master was able to send me once a day was enough to get me through. He was never far from my thoughts as i got daily reminders of Him. Here are the examples:

Someone had on a shirt that had His name on it, license plate of the state He lives in, a name of a restaurant, a snake (long story), a football team on TV, both my parents mention the state He lives in, a Viking sign (long story) and a friend talking about Gladiators (long story).

And that dam license plate followed me everywhere! It wasn't the same one, but still.....just sayin'.

So the struggle??? i was unable to perform my daily tasks. i was so out of whack! i felt the need to be controlled and it really bothered me and made me feel very lost. When i heard from Him it settled me a bit. i should explain when i say lost it wasn't because i was insecure with our relationship. It was more because i wasn't able to get permission for things and just had to go about my way. It was difficult. Master controls everything about me and my life so when that was not present it was hard. i hated it. i do not like being away from Him. i need Him and His direction, guidance and protection.

Well we are back and i can't be more relieved and happy. i'm settled and feeling back home mentally. i was doing my normal routines last night and it felt great! i missed that and Him so much!

i did get a disturbing text message while i was away. There haven't been many times where i have felt so disgustingly cheap (probably can count on one hand). A "man" sent me a text asking me to get together with him while his wife, who is my friend, was away. i did not respond at all because i could get no direction from Master. i still feel cheap and disgusting. When Master has time i will have to review it with Him again. i haven't gotten it out of my mind. It is still bothering me. i know He will help me deal with it better than i can do by myself. i've missed that.